I am a woman who is divided.
Not because I want to be divided. It’s just hard to be whole when there are pieces beyond my reach, beyond my control.
My hope is that with time, those that have flown apart will one day be able to come together.
In the mean time, I feel like one who is living two completely separate lives. I feel like one who is two separate people.
I want to assimilate the two. I want to incorporate the two. I want it all to be one. But it is never that simple.
I still feel as though my life is filled with secrets. And feeling as though one’s life is full of secrets can lead to a life that feels quite lonely and isolated.
Secrets make one feel unknown and alienated. No matter how many people may think they know you, you still feel like a shadow. An impostor. Invisible, obscured.
Like a sun eclipsed by an eternal night sky.